Looking over the past few posts on this blog I seem so...optimistic. Sadly, I haven't been able to post much lately, especially on this one. Part of that was my participation in the "poem a day" challenge in November, but here it is halfway through December, and I'm only now finding time to write. The sad thing is, I really don't have the time. There are about a hundred other things I should be doing, but for my own sanity I need to do this. I'm having a bad case of the "bah-humbug-blues". Try as I might, I'm having a hard time getting into the spirit. This is strange for me since for most of my life, I've really enjoyed the Christmas season. Maybe it's because my kids no longer believe in Santa Claus. Maybe it's because the holidays just seem to add to my work load. It could be my head isn't screwed on just right, it could be, perhaps that my shoes are too tight... I digress.
I don't think I'm alone feeling this way, in fact a lot of people I know seem to feel like..it just doesn't feel quite right this year. Sometimes I want to scream at the advertisers "NO, REALLY, THAT'S NOT WHAT MOM WANTS FOR CHRISTMAS!". (Mom just wants a day off.) I watch Christmas movies, knowing that it doesn't always end "happily ever after" even if you have all the freakin' Christmas spirit in the world. I notice that there are fewer and fewer Nativity scenes, and way too many Santa Clauses. Nothing against Santa... but a little perspective, please.
So if you are feeling like this, just know that you are not alone, and hey, call me!! (or facebook me) Or call another friend, or your mother or anyone. You'd be surprised how "not" alone you really are. Meanwhile I know for me, a few optimistic heart cells still beat, in hopes that in the end, everything will work out; everything will be okay. I hold on to that, turn on the Christmas music, and get through one holly jolly day at a time.
Caren E. Salas
photo: guardian.co.uk
and http://www.fanpop.com/spots/how-the-grinch-stole-christmas/images/8139758/title/grinch-photo
quote from "How the Grinch Stole Christmas" by Dr. Seuss